A Note on Life and Procrastination

Can I write a personal post, for a change and an update? Well, of course I can. I have been  busy with my classes this semester (big surprise right?), and it’s only just the beginning for me. On the plus side being busy keeps me from thinking that something is missing in my life. On the down side it has taken me over a month to adjust to the new schedule and teachers.

Michael started his new job and the shop, where I work, closes an hour earlier now, so both of us are off at 5! I also have a come-to-Jesus with my Educational Psychology homework. We were not doing well together. I realized that I needed to be motivated, whether I felt like it or not. So far it seems to have made a great difference. I will truly know when I get my grade back on an upcoming project.

As far as farmhouse items go, I have been busy decorating and perfecting for Autumn, when I can be. I am almost ready to take some photographs. I think I will go ahead and do this Sunday or Monday, my days off. The weekend after next I will get to decorate the front “porch”. I’m so much further behind everyone else, but I have homework that is tons more important and a new house that deserves so much more than many of my dinky apartment decorations. If you follow my Instagram you can see a few sneak peeks.

In the way of fitness. I dropped off just before September. I am making an effort to regroup very soon. I miss running. and now that schedules are syncing and flowing I think I will be able to get back with it. Especially with food planning. I get very mental about things you see and it causes me to withdraw. I call it being lazy. I am lazy. But it’s more likely often a result of my anxiety. I throw lots of pity parties for myself, mentally.

As for other things in my life… it’s always quite interesting! I have been Happy Planning away, I decorated for and witnessed a wedding at the Harley Shop, I have been to Colorado on the motorcycle (hope to share pictures with you soon as well!), went shopping with my mom for all things great, I have been in an amazing classroom for my internship and taught some lessons, and I continue to find ways to improve after being in a slump!

Some of the changes I have made, which really are just adulting:

  1. Buying groceries with a plan. I haven’t really been doing this. I have been relying on Michael to come up with ideas for dinner and grill. So I was quite proud when I bought myself some breakfast foods, some snacks for both of us and dinner for two meals this week. I didn’t even break the bank! When Michael came home from work, the chicken and dumplings were ready to eat! It was a perfect Monday. I hope to keep this going.
  2. Syncing schedules has helped a ton. I have so far been able to convince Michael to help me clean up after dinner, and we have been eating at the table. He helps wash some of the dishes which is better than nothing and I super appreciate it. I’m able to put leftovers away and dry them and then finish the rest. He also takes out the trash the majority of the time.
  3. Doing my homework with a plan in mind. When I started visiting a friend regularly, sort-of, I felt the need to get certain homework items out of the way earlier than my normal procrastinating self does. And somehow I stuck with it. Now I get the discussion boards done a day early, and after my problems with Ed Psych I’m reading that text book through out the week rather than the couple of days before things are due. I tell you it feels great at the end of the evening when it’s 9:30-10:00 and I’m able to stop and relax and read a fun book or watch a show with out any stress. Often I can even not do any homework Friday or Saturday because I am far enough ahead! It’s really rewarding.
  4. And a simple change in setting for homework has done wonders. I began reading my Ed Psych text at the table to give me a greater sense of importance. I was not giving it enough attention on the couch. I began reading and highlighting and making note-cards for vocabulary and even rereading for summarize the major chucks of concepts they want us to be able to explain. It’s been fantastic. So yes, I do my homework in three different places at home!
  5. Of course having my Happy Planner has helped me. I keep track of my homework using the side bar. Other important dates, to-do’s, or what homework I feel like concentrating on that night get written in the regular daily part.

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All in all, I’m sad that it has taken me so long to realize how great it feels to not be a procrastinator, but I know in my heart I will always be fighting this! Thankfully I know what needs to be done to get on track, up so speed, and ahead of the deadlines! And maybe this information makes me seem really ridiculous, oblivious, or even naive and child like. I’m ok with that. We all fight our own battles. My life has been relatively easy, especially working at a Harley shop, but being in school gives me more responsibility, and it’s only going to increase. I just wanted to share some things that I have found help me function at home and with homework a little bit better.

So this busy bee will try to keep some future updates in mind!

-Colorado

-Fall Decor

-New Work Wardrobe (Oh, YES. LOFT LOVE!)

-Possibly Happy Planner and craft room/office related

-&…?

Thanks everyone!

Love,

Ashley

 

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First Ever Lululemon Purchase

Ok folks. I did it. I took the plunge and ordered three pieces from Lululemon. I have been very into yoga lately and it’s what all of the cool kids wear right… *gag* What really got me to do it was the AMAZING Dottie Tribe print. I wanted to purchase the legging, but it was sold out so I decided to try bra with the same print. And if you give a mouse a lululemon bra, she’s going to want some pants and a top too!

I did this to build up a nice small yoga wardrobe. Maybe three tops, bottoms, and bras that can be mixed and matched. I want my yoga clothes to be performance and like…well…butter! I’m sure I will continue to add to it if I can fall in love with the brand… Let’s see how it fares for me.

First Item:

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Energy Bra

This bra was too small. I am a 31″ bust. This is supposed to fit a 30″. The band would have been doable, but the part that cuts across the lats really CUT. So return, I must. I will be purchasing a different style in the future… I think!

Second:

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High Times Pant

BUTTER. These pants feel like butter. I love the high cut. I have been so tired of pants cutting my off on my “love handles”. There’s room above and room below, but not in between! I really love the dye effect of them. They are not a too light of grey for me.

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Salute the Sun Tank

Ohhhhhh Lulu… Where did it all go really wrong?! How can you guys make a bra for a woman with a bust smaller than a 32A, but your smallest top, a 2, is TOO BIG?! This is the sole reason I tend to order the smallest size of top in any brand… This top has a fun dye effect like the pants as well, and a unique back. I love the spilt at the bottom, the hole in the center of the back is so-so. I can’t decide if I want to keep this or not. I have to wear it with the front plunging, which lets you see my bra, which can be fun, but something in me always hates the feeling that I’m wearing something that doesn’t fit. And it sucks even more because I know its do to my small frame, narrow shoulders, and small shoulder strap measurement.

Could I possibly get this tailored? I have no idea. I know that most of the time this is an issue I will deal with for the rest of my life, but I just find it so bizarre that a company will sell teeny tiny bras, and no teeny tiny tops for that customer.

I’m going to wear it around the house for a bit before I decide.

So far we are 2 for 3. 1 for the pants and .5 for each the top and bra. If the next bra fits and I decide to keep the top we will probably be at 2.5 for 3! lol I’m gonna stay so-so on the top.

The pants are MINE! Muahahahahaaaaa

ugh… I might have become a Lulu addict.

What are your favorite Lulu pieces? Share some information about their product with me! Any fans of other brands or pieces of athletic clothing?

Just a Hello! Vlog

Hey, everyone. I know it’s been a minute! I have posted a video to share something with you! I’m excited to discuss my passions with you; running, crafts, and more. As well as some tips for staying motivated in your running!

I hope you are all having a fantastic summer! I will be seeing you all more frequently, as i begin spending more time behind my personal computer again!

Yoga Room

I Have you ever hit a slump? I have hit about a million in my life, and over come them as well! But lately I am feeling very different about life. I am really appreciating this season that I am in because I feel wiser, but I also see a lot of work that needs to be done if I want to relax and enjoy life. I am extremely high strung, but with depressive tendencies to withdraw from life. If something is not going well I sit on it. What really ifs bringing on this internal reflection is my morning routine. Every morning I hate life. i roll around in bed unaware of the ticking clock until BAM! I’ve got ten minutes to get dressed AND get to work. What is it about me that I can’t get out of bed when the first alarm goes off? Why to I resent getting up? When I do get up early I love the time I get to myself. There is just this moment between sleep and waking that is Jekyll and Hyde and I have GOT to change it. This, as well as the way I handle other things in my life: with resent and procrastination.

To help me I am trying to stay away from high impact activities and turn toward eastern philosophy. (I do want to start running again… as long as it’s not a stress trigger!)

I have been practicing yoga a lot lately with the help of the Down Dog App! It is fantastic for beginners or anyone really. I love this app because it puts together a yoga flow based on experience as well as time. You can also choose between a regular flow or restorative. ***Bonus points if you follow creator, Adrienne Kimberley, on Instagram!

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Because I moved not too long ago, and my things have slowly trickled into the house, I have found myself overwhelmed by personal belongings. This move and new outlook have given me the opportunity to clear some clutter out of my immediate space and some things permanently. We will be adding on this year, then I will be able to give many of my things a permanent home and get rid of many others! I’m very excited for that time, but for now I decided I needed to clear things out of the spaces I spend time in.

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In doing so I realized I had enough room for a yoga and meditation space! I have decided to decorate it in an eastern style with symbols starting with a mandala and Buddha statue. I am trying to be careful not to bring too many tiny decorations into the space. Things that are symbolic or useful only.

Here is my inspiration board!

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The tapestry was a hard decision to make. There are so, so many choices online, but I found the prices at urban outfitters to be a little too out there. I found this one at Jaipur Art Factory for 15-20 dollars. I just love the royal peacock colors. There is a hint of mustard, which is one of my old favorites. I was initially drawn to a light colored tapestry with yellow tones, but found it not to be traditional looking enough. I am forever also drawn to blue-greens! I found this mat, which at $100 is wayyyy more than I want to spend, at Houzz. It matches so perfectly and is bright enough to lighten up the room. I fear the dark tapestry will make the room too dark, but other decor elements can help and I would prefer a serene dark blue over red or orange any day.

The shelving unit I already own. The tapestry is a DIY from A Beautiful Mess! I have the cording, I just need to get the copper pipe. These pillows came form all over. They are here for visualization rather than being exact. I will purchase pillows that I come across. I have an aloe plant in the room, and I am considering getting another plant. The salt lamp is functional, as it purifies the air! The Buddha is symbolic and important in some peoples practices. The lantern is for ambiance and the basket is for storing blankets!

So, while it is starting to look a little cluttered, I think that all of these items are really functional. Pillows for meditating as well as color and texture. Salt lamp and plants for purification as well as bringing the grounding element of nature inside. The lantern to invite a soft glow into nighttime practices. A basket to keep the room tidy. A mirror to expand the room. A wall hanging for a personal touch and to bring more white into the room. A mandala tapestry and Buddha for symbolic and aesthetic purposes.

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Here is the progress I have made and where I want to place some things. The craft corner of the room is still pretty out of control, but the sewing table top is clear now! We took the bookcase to the basement because all it was doing was allowing me to clutter things up. It was worse off than in the first room picture above!

Top left: Inside the O is where I plan to place a table for the salt lamp and the Buddha. I will also be looking for a new pot for my aloe plant. I have the wall hanging planned of course, but I’m undecided on art for the time being.

Top right: The tapestry! To the lower right of the mirror I will place the lantern and basket.

Bottom left: I am dreaming up some mandala or lotus DIY art for the empty wall. This space is so much more clear. I had a lot of little things on my desk that I moved away.

Bottom right: I want to find some cute wall storage to keep my crafts organized. I also need to find something to keep my school binders in. The black amp is there for good. It is my boyfriends and it really has no other home. The box is full of crafts that i may try to find a better looking container for.

So there you have it! From stressed out to yoga-fied! My feelings and decor plans all in one bundle, haha.

Thank you for letting me share a little bit more about myself and my struggles with anxiety. I change decor like most women cut their hair when needing a change! I can’t wait to share the final product! This room is moving fast in comparison to the rest of the home! And you can see I’m leaning towards a more “World Market” look rather than “farm house”. I still love that I can incorporate elements of both and more into my style!

Are you into any big life changes or healing practices?

“I’m ready to slow down. I’m ready to simplify. I’m ready to receive… While yoga has awakened me to my potential and seen me through some dramatic changes, yoga also reminds me that doing less enables me to receive more. I’m open, I’m listening, I’m ready” – Adrienne Kimberley

Running Record Resolution

I’m back with another resolution update. I hate to leave everyone hanging, it has been som e times since my last post, but I also try not to constantly post OOTD/Update type stuff… I like stuff with real substance, but then what would a blog be with out a real person behind it?!

So here’s another update of a different kind!

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I mentioned that fitness is always a part of renewing myself or personal growth, especially in the new year. Normally I keep plans and goals that are risky to myself. I’m afraid of be scoffed or failing, or worse… scoffed into failing! But I have learned that there is a great freedom in being open with your goals, and it is humbling to fail and try again.

Last year I did a fair amount of working out. I decided to try to embrace the gym. Oh, man do I really love lifting weights! I really do! But I did not like it enough to continue after my membership expired. There was something about spending an hour or more with all kinds of grunting sweaty strangers that were using all of the things you wanted to. There was something difficult about thinking of what were the right exercises to be performing and reps and sets. There was something exhausting about planning my day around all of it and not seeing results as fast as you wished. I can truly appreciate the sport because I have given it an Ashley try. I commend weight lifters and body builders. You have strength, focus, drive, and patience.

So here I am. Avoiding a yoga class that I am afraid will cost me our the ying-yang and that I will end up not liking… And I put on my running shoes instead.

I looked at the amazing past progress I had made on Nike+, then the coach feature of the app. A beginner 10K program that took 8 weeks. I looked up a race that was a little over 8 weeks out and set up my program and did it. I’m just doing it. I am only in the 3rd week, so I might be getting my hopes up. But Ashley really is a runner. She just never felt confident enough to call herself one until now.

Funny things always happen when you make a choice like this in your life. Here I was worried about paying so much for memberships… My Lunar Flyknits have 13 miles on them according to Nike+ and they are clapped. They probably have more than 13, but not 250!

So yes, of course I got some new shoes! My ankles were bleeding and me feet were so sore. So… here I am still spending money, but there is something different about doing it for something that you love. Whether the love is in the moment or not. I’m about as impulsive as a Taurus gets! Good news is I am feeling NO pain in the side of my knee now!

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How’d my very first run go?

I felt terrible. I felt worse starting out than I can ever remember starting out before. I am officially getting older and it’s time that I take charge of my health and not take such a long break between. I hadn’t been to the gym since AUGUST! What was my excuse all winter? I was working full time, going to school…But I was giving up. I felt I had done all that I could do. Here I am, full time with two internships and trying to kill it. I guess some desperate times make you finally reach for a little salvation.

So running has always been there for me. I’ve been running since the 7th grade. But for the first time in my life, I feel like I am there for running too. Looking back at these photos I am so impressed with what I have accomplished in the last 3 weeks!

So yes, while I wish I had the money and time to blog about nothing other than home decor and crafts, I am a real person, trying really hard to better themselves in more areas than one! This Taurus is a jack of all trades! I can’t wait to share more with you. A progress update before I get to sure of myself about this race! Yes, I’m still nervous!

Are any of you runners? What are your favorite ways to stay healthy?